Hello friends! I has been quite a while since I’ve written anything here, and I apologize for my lack of content and consistency.
I’ve been going through some personal struggles/life changes recently, and I just did not feel like doing any recipe development, or writing any blog posts. As much as I hope for blogging to someday be at least part of my “real” job, that’s not the case right now, and I needed to make the decision to take care of myself, first and foremost.
I remember maybe a year ago, my mom said to me, “Life just gets better in your 30s. Your 20s are really hard, especially emotionally, and I think in your 30s things just feel easier.” I can’t even remember what we were talking about then, but I remember thinking “I have no idea what you’re talking about. Being in your 20s is so easy – you’re young, no kids to take care of, probably not even married!” And for the past ~3 years, that’s how I felt. I found a great job out of school, I moved in to my own place that I paid for with my own money, I was falling more and more in love with fitness and nutrition, I began a new relationship that was so unique to any I’d experienced previously and I fell deeply in love, and I found a new firey passion for rock climbing. Sure, nothing was perfect, I had my ups and downs, I tragically lost my cousin in a car accident, and my relationship had a lot of obstacles to overcome, but overall I felt very happy and comfortable in my life.
Until about 6 months ago.
Over the last half year, I’ve started to feel like a completely different person. I’ve become more negative, more cynical, and just frustrated in day to day life. The “obstacles” in my relationship were wearing on me, and becoming harder to ignore. My seasonal depression in the winter has gotten so much worse, and I constantly feel I need to move someone else. My job has started to feel routine and boring. I feel like I’ve completely plateaued in climbing, and I’m no longer seeing improvements. In summary: I’m feeling deeply unsettled in my relationship, my job, my abilities, and my current location. And it feels like crap. I keep getting upset with myself – continuously asking “ok Lindsay, what do you truly WANT in your life?” – and I feel like I used to always have some sort of answer to this question, but recently I literally have no idea. All I know is I’m unhappy with my current situation, and I have no idea how I want to change it. I know I can’t allow my own happiness and needs to suffer, no matter how much I love someone. I know I want to leave Minnesota, but I have no idea how to do it. I know I don’t want to sit at a desk 8 hours a day anymore. And I know all of this is causing me a lot of pain and anxiety that definitely aren’t improving my situation. And now I know exactly what my mom was talking about that day. Your 20s are hard.
I think all I can do for now is hope that time will bring more clarity. I am doing my best to focus more on the positive things in my life, rather than the ones that are bringing me down. I am forcing myself to say “yes” to more things, even if the introvert in me just wants to stay home. And I’m trying to really take care of myself on a physical level – feeding my body right, getting at least 8 hours of sleep every night, foam rolling and massaging, and getting the supplements my body needs. Hopefully some day (preferably sooner than later) I’ll have a better idea of want I want for my life, and how to get myself there.
So that’s why I’ve been MIA recently. But this week I want to start back in to recipe development, and get a few new posts up for you, starting today with my weekly workouts.
Since returning from Alaska, my fitness routine has changed a bit. I started a 6 week Strength Series class at my gym, Alchemy, and after running my first organized 5k, I’ve decided to run my first 10k at the end of September, so I’ve been running 3x a week as well. It’s been a little frustrating, though, since I’m almost always too sore from strength series, or too tired from running to go climbing. Which led to a 3 week hiatus from climbing (including Alaska trip)…. not cool. Luckily I did get back in the climbing gym a few times this week, even though I feel like a total gumby again. So hopefully I can work out a way to get climbing more often again. Hope everyone has a wonderful week, and get some good workouts in!
2.5 mile run
Strength series –
Bench press 5×5
Pull-ups (weighted) 5×5
Strict press 5×10
*I used 70/65# for bench press, banded pullups, and 40# for strict press
2 mile run
50 stepups (total)
50 curtsy lunges
50 good mornings
50 jump squats
*I broke my reps into 2 sets of 20 and 1 set of 10; I held 30# for step-ups, and used 35# for good mornings
Strength series –
Ring pushups 4×20
3-point rows 5×15 (each arm)
*I started with 55# for push press and worked up to 75#, and started with 25# for rows and dropped to 15# by my last set
4 mile run
Climbing – warmup on 5.6 up + down x2, then doubles – 5.10a/5.7, 5.10b/5.8, 5.10a/5.7
Climbing – 5.8, 5.10b, 5.9, 5.8, 5.11a
Tone It Up x Alchemy Private Class
20 min AMRAP:
– 10 burpees
– 20 deadlifts
– 30 air squats
– 20 swing snatch
– 30 sec side plank (R)
– 30 sec side plank (L)
*I finished 4 rounds + a few burpees using 40# for deadlifts and 20# for swing snatch