Yesterday was a really tough day for me. It was the 2nd anniversary of my cousin’s passing, he was killed 2 years ago in a tragic car accident. When it happened, I remember thinking immediately of his parents, my aunt and uncle, and how there is literally no one less deserving of that kind of pain. When something like this happens, everyone is hurting not only for the person they lost, but for the other friends and family affected by their absence. It is a tough time for my family as a whole.
Aside from that, I’ve been having some struggles in my personal life that have left me feeling sad, frustrated, guilty, and a whole bunch of other crappy emotions that don’t feel good. So I decided to make a point of fitting in little session of self care throughout my day. I woke up, did a quick 20 minute vinyasa flow, walked to get myself coffee (it was so cold, but fresh air always helps clear my head), then made myself a good breakfast. After working a through the morning, I decided to use my lunch break to treat myself to a massage + reiki healing session. I went to see Jill Seifert, a massage therapist and reiki master teacher. I have never experienced reiki before, and my mom was dabbling in energy therapy and seemed to have positive results, so I thought now would be a good time to give it a shot. First of all, Jill has magic hands – literally the best massage I’ve ever had, and she only worked on my neck and back. Firm, relaxing pressure that was therapeutic without hurting. After the massage portion, she “smudged” my front and back sides with sage, to clear my energy, and placed crystals along my different chakras. I remember her placing one on my crown chakra, and immediately feeling this intense heat spread across my forehead from the stone. My body suddenly felt super alert and almost anxious, and my hands started twitching. It was super strange, but as she continued working with my energy, the anxiety slowly lifted and I eventually fell into one of the deepest meditative states I’ve been able to reach in a long time. I practice meditation often, but it is rare and truly special when I am able to fall this deeply into it. After everything was over, she met me outside the room to go over what she saw and felt during our session, which was incredibly insightful when I thought about everything that has me down lately. I cried at parts, but overall felt so much more balanced and almost “cleansed” when I left. If you’re in the Minneapolis area I would definitely recommend seeing her. I think I’d like to do more session in the future, but my main takeaway is that I really need to start taking care of myself emotionally again. I am great at taking care of my physical body, I eat well and exercise daily, but I pour all of my emotional and mental energy into the people I love, and even those I don’t (i.e. at work), and I’m left with little for myself. So this is definitely something I’m going to work on in the next few weeks.
After working the rest of the afternoon, I made these fabulous scones for you! I’m not going to lie – I totally fudged this recipe on the first go. I added way too much coconut milk, and my scones turned into cookies. They are some seriously delicious cookies, but well, they weren’t scones. And I wanted to make scones. This was one of my favorite gluten free recipes from my time before paleo, when I could eat dairy and gluten free grains without getting sick. So I wanted to recreate a paleo version, and the second try turned out perfect! Now I need to find someone to give some to since I have scones AND cookies, and there’s still banana bread in my fridge, and having that many baked good around is simply dangerous. I originally used Simple Mills pancake mix, but that recipe turned in to cookies, so I used Birch Bender’s paleo pancake mix (not vegan!) for the 2nd batch and it worked wonderfully! I think any paleo pancake mix should work, though. Enjoy!!