Happy Friday! Today is such a good day because:
- Well, it’s Friday.
- It finally stopped raining and the sun is shining.
- I got a super cute new logo for my blog header!! <3
- I made it to Alchemy this morning AND got in a run at lunch.
- I’m currently drinking the best coffee protein smoothie ever.
- I’m going climbing at Taylor’s Falls tomorrow which means my first day of trad this season is finally here!
This is a total turn around from yesterday. I was such an emotional mess yesterday, it was unreal. First, I woke up early to run before work. I was exhausted and felt like shit, but I still got up and got ready, but once I got outside I realized it was raining. So I didn’t run, and I was pissed I woke up early because I was so tired. So I decided, for some terrible reason, to go upstairs and step on the scale, and I was not happy with the number. I’m fully aware that weight fluctuates, and I shouldn’t pay much attention to it, but I have a habit of weighing myself before the days I’m going to try to send a project at the gym. I just like to know how much weight I’m going to be taking up the wall, I guess.
I’ve been doing crossfit and now alchemy for about 5 months, and my logical brain tells me that I’ve gained about 6 lbs of muscle weight in the time. I’ve increased my 1 RM for deadlifts by about 15 lbs in that time, I can do an actual pull-up for the first time in my life, and I’m getting real definition in my arms, shoulders, and back. My irrational, insecure, emotional part of me freaked out, though, and began telling myself I’m getting “chubby”, and gaining too much weight to improve my climbing. This was bothering me so much all day, that when I fell on the last move of my project, I lowered to the ground without finishing and started crying. Even though this was the highest I’ve ever gotten without falling before, and still my best performance to date, I told myself I fell because I was a bad climber and I was becoming too heavy.
In hindsight this was pretty ridiculous and embarrassing. I’ve never been a very strong person, I played soccer my whole childhood and through high school, so I had decently strong legs and cardio endurance, but never any upper body strength. In college I put in hours on the treadmill and elliptical. With climbing, I’m involved in a sport where I want to be stronger, but I have to accept that with strength comes additional weight. It’s a learning process, as well as an acceptance process, but I’ll get there. And even when we have terrible, total shit days where we feel worthless and like nothing is going right, it usually only takes a good night’s sleep to shift our perspective and mood. The next day might be wonderful, like today. Negative feelings and bad moods are only temporary, if we allow them to be.
Anyway, on to this coleslaw. I bought a giant purple cabbage the other day, then got home and realized I had no idea what to do with it. Then, while looking over a restaurant menu on night, I saw coleslaw and starting craving it instantly. The thing is, you never know what kind of crap is hiding in the dressing at restaurants. Which is how this recipe came to be, and it’s perfect in time for spring, summer, cook outs, and fresh veggies. Enjoy!
PS sorry about the crappy iphone photo – I left my memory card for my camera in my office the day I made this. Wah wah wah.